My Dad

Heather

Ok well here I go im not sure if I will get any e-mails but it's worth a try.So heres my story...

When I was 6 years old I was told I have scleroderma...Localized thank god.Im now 20 and have a lil girl and work in the health care field.I just recently found out that I was never really diagnosed...I have searched the web and it looks similiar to linear morphea...I guess thats related to scleroderma.I have a active patch on my right collar bone which makes me very self councious.and I have a patch that used to be active on my right arm.

The reason I dont think it's active is beacuse the colour has changed and it's not thick anymore.I had a patch on my left breast for about a month but it went away.I know that im very lucky that it has not spread much on my body and I thank god everyday,but I still find myself fantasising that I could walk into a room with a low neck line and my hair up and feel proud.Barely any of my friends know because I just hide it with shirts that can cover it.

Today I went to the makeup department and asked if there was any makeup for scars and I showed the lady and she said it could quite easily be covered with a makeup designed for scars.OH how I pray it will.It's summer time and i just want to wear a bikini top with pride.

I know to some of you I may sound selfish or un greatful,but thats not the case what so ever.It's just been 14 years now where I have been hiding it and going through numerous amounts of sexy shirts to find one that will look good but hide it.So if you guys have any tips I would really appreciate it...And some stories that can give me hope would be really appreciated.I get scared when I hear scary stories and see pictures of what could happen to me.Could it go away?Well i guess so because it went away on my breast.Please get back to me as soon as possible.
love heather

heatherstones@shaw.ca